Your Energy is Your Currency - Spend It Wisely

 

My Energy, My Time, and It Changes Everything.

There was a time when I drained myself dry, not from hard work, but from my mind. I used to waste hours feeling sorry about the setbacks, resisting change, and obsessing over things I couldn’t control. Worst of all, I let others’ success make me question my worth. Then life handed me a lesson I’ll never forget.

I was an Assistant Manager at a leading national bakery. I ran my team with efficiency. To the point that even the customers and the directors noticed. But so did a few jealous managers. Instead of matching my effort, they plotted against me. When the sabotage came to light, the truth revealed. I eventually walked away with two years’ worth of a salary. And just days later, a top-ranking organization hired me.

That moment taught me everything. Self-pity doesn’t protect you, it paralyzes you. The managers who tried to break me? They wasted energy tearing others down. I think if it were me, I’d rather build. The other day by chance in the City Centre I ran into one of those previous managers, and I was sad by what my eyes beheld.

It reminds me to welcome challenges, but I’m still growing. Its true that I speak up without apology, because kindness shouldn’t mean silence. I take smart risks, knowing stagnation is the real danger. And when others succeed, I cheer. Their light doesn’t dim mine.

Life’s too short to pour energy into what drains you. Focus on what builds you. That’s where the real power lies.

Putting Away the Old Self: A Journey Through Books, Memory, and Change

Putting away the old self sounds easy until you really walk that line. I remember the day I decided I wanted to write a review of a book gifted to me by someone dear to my heart. As I recently held it in my hands, the weight of the moment settled in. Another first for me—a brand-new book.

Don’t get me wrong—I’ve read a book or two in my time. But growing up, books weren’t something you just bought. In school, we had libraries and textbooks provided for us. Outside of that, if you wanted a novel or any reading material, you swapped with friends or found them in second-hand piles.

I remember the bookshop in the city centre, a small, bustling place that ran on exchanges. If there was a book you wanted, a promise to return it when done, and suddenly, it was in your hands. Sometimes there was a small price, sometimes just the unspoken rule of sharing. That was how stories moved between us.

All this was at a time when my country, Zimbabwe, was just becoming. I grew up in the mid-1980s and early 1990s, a time when Zimbabwe still held its breath with cautious optimism. On the surface, things were good. The infrastructure was solid, hospitals functioned, transportation ran smoothly, and the education system was strong. The new government had inherited something that worked, life flowed as it should. But beneath that surface, darkness stirred.

No one paid much attention to what the politicians were doing back then. Robert Mugabe, then President of Zimbabwe, was busy charming the British government, so much so that the Queen of England even knighted him, he was awarded the honorary knighthood, Grand Cross of the Order of the British Empire (GCMB), in 1982 by Queen Elizabeth II. 

Meanwhile, back home, his hands were still stained with the blood of the Ndebele people from the Gukurahundi massacres. Tens of thousands were slaughtered, their stories buried under political silence.

Dare I Speak of Zimbabwean Politics

Today, in this century, I refuse to engage in Zimbabwean politics. The wounds run too deep, the fear still lingers. Some of those who remember don’t feel safe speaking, even now.

And yet, today, here I am, holding a brand-new book for the first time in my life. Steven Furtick’s "Do the New You."

Thank you again, again, and again Akin, for this gift.

The Irony of a New Book in a Life of Hand-Me-Downs

There was something poetic about it. My relationship with books had been built on exchanges, borrowed time, and second-hand treasures. And now, here was something fresh, unmarked, not because I traded for it, but because someone gave it to me, and it was given freely.

This book is more than just pages and ink. It is a symbol of change, of grace, of the possibility that even after a lifetime of hand-me-downs, there will always be a first time for everything waiting for us.

And maybe, just maybe, that’s where the new me begins.

The Way You Talk to Yourself Changes Everything.

The Brutal Truth About Your Inner Voice

Let me hit you with something raw: the most dangerous person in your life isn’t that critical co-worker, that judgmental relative, or even that toxic ex.

It’s you!

Every single morning, you face a choice. You can be the voice that says,
“Let’s go get it,”
or the one that whispers,
“Who do you think you are?”

With this choice.
It doesn’t just shape your day. It shapes your entire life.

I had to learn this for years, and I let my mind bully me into shrinking. I chased approval, masked insecurity with overachievement, but still I felt like an impostor. Eventually, I realised that no amount of external success will ever silence the war inside my head.

The real work starts when you stop fighting the world and start fighting for yourself. I know that my scars are proof that I am still here.

Let’s make something crystal clear, mistakes don’t define you.

How you rise from them does.

I used to treat my failures like dirty secrets. Now,
I wear them like armour.

I’ve lost jobs that meant the world to me. I’ve had my heart broken in ways that left me gutted. I’ve chased dreams that are still just out of reach.

But none of that means I failed.
It means I tried, and it means I dared to care. And that alone? That’s worth celebrating.

Every time life knocked me down, I stood back up.
Every scar I carry proves one thing, and it is that I am unbreakable.

Stop Apologizing for Existing

Here’s a little truth, people’s opinions are about as permanent as sidewalk chalk in a rainstorm.I spent so long twisting myself into knots trying to please everyone, trying to be likable, agreeable, small.

And what did I get?
Exhaustion.
Resentment.
A version of my life that didn’t even feel like it belonged to me.

The day I finally said, “Enough,” that was the day I started to breathe for the first time.

Here’s what I know now, you don’t need permission to take up space and you don’t need to earn your worth, you are already enough.

Seriously through,  When that voice hisses, “You’ll fail,” look it dead in the eye and say,
“Watch me do it!

Courage isn’t some magical thing that special people are born with.
It’s a muscle.

Every time you choose action over anxiety, you strengthen it.

You don’t have to wait to be fearless to begin.
You must start while you're scared.

It’s time to rewrite the script

From this moment forward, I’ve made a promise to myself, I will be on my own damn team, when I stumble, and I will, I’ll be the hand that pulls myself back up, not the foot that kicks me when I’m down.

When I succeed, I’ll be the first one to cheer and the last one to dismiss it as luck.

The world will try to write your story for you.
Don’t let it.

Grab the pen.
Cross out the lies.
And in bold, unapologetic letters, write this,

I am enough, and I am just getting started, and now, I claim my damn victory.